Just A Little Bit Of My Heart

A couple weeks ago I experienced a major shift in my life and I’m still trying to pick up the pieces and understand what happened. It’s so crazy how one minute everything can seem perfectly fine and then next thing you know your drowning in your own emotions because you can’t handle how life is constantly biting you in the ass. I’ve been feeling so defeated recently. Every aspect of my life has been a struggle. Emotionally I am distraught and a wreck. I feel like my entire world and what I know has crashed down. I haven’t reached rock bottom but I feel myself slipping closer and closer to it. I’m honestly feel sad. Everyone keeps telling me to focus on my goals. Don’t worry everything will be okay but I don’t feel like it is. My heart is telling me otherwise. Recently, I was told that I always have to remember that not everyone who smiles in your face has your best interest at heart. And honestly there are no truer words. I experienced this shift in my life. The shift shattered me emotionally. I cried so hard on the inside, while my exterior told another story. I hid my true emotions and remained stoic in the face of betrayal.  I’ve decided not to be bitter. I’ve decided to not be petty and angry but to forgive and continue believing that through the stink people can change. There is a reason why God constantly gives us many chances so I have to live by his example.

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