Have you ever had moments in your life where you just wished you said yes instead of saying no or instead of just sitting there speechless because you have no worries. I think a lot of this comes from the lack of confidence we have within ourselves and the inability to not worry about what people will say or how this will affect our lives. I have had moments like these maybe one to many where I should have given an answer instead of just remaining speechless or acting like I wasn’t interested. I look back on these moments and these are my biggest regrets in life. Not being able to say “yes” when the right moment came up.A lot of my missed moments had to do with worry and not feeling good enough. Some has to do with relationships I passed up because I was too afraid to take the risk and others had to do with me internally. My inner yes moments. I am 20 years old and the only risks I take in life is speaking what’s on my mind. I know I know not a lot of people can do this but I wish that I was more of a risk taker instead of a worrier. I worry a lot about myself and also about what others will think of me if I step way out of the box. I need to ask God to just take that pride away from me and renew in me a new and improved risk taker. A person who will follow the things he has placed on her heart. Praying always works but it is up to the person who is praying for these things to go out and do it. God can plant that seed in our lives but it is up to us to continue feeding it, nourishing it and nursing it to it’s full potential.
“Don’t worry about anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers and requests to God. Then, because you belong to Christ Jesus, God will bless you with peace that no one can completely understand. And this peace will control the way you think and feel.”-Philippians 4:6-7
If anyone reads this what are some moments in your life you wish you had said yes?
I love that time of the night/early morning when my entire house is asleep and I can just press into my worship music and just praise God, read the bible or just something inspirational or just plain old search the internet or write blog post. I love this time because it is so quiet which means that I can think better and just focus on God. I have to admit that I don’t do this every night sometimes I stay up and catch up on my TV Shows or watch a movie or something. I love to sing and I feel like I have a real passion for worship music but I want to make sure that this is what I really want to do. I want to do this for all the right reasons and not the wrong reasons. Yes there can be wrong reasons to want to do some stuff that is in your heart. Well I believe that…..I would really love to know how to master the art and really engage and press into a higher place with God and also to connect with the church members. I believe it is a God given talent and also something that must be on your heart. You can have the best voice in the world but never learn how to just let go and put your heart into it. I always envision myself singing in front of my church and just basking in his glory and also engaging and ministering to the church people through music. I want to learn how to write songs so I am reading the bible on a somewhat daily basis. I picked the Contemporary English Version because it was the easiest translation for me. I am understanding some stuff so much more better but not really memorizing it (sad face) I am trying that is what I am proud of. I am trying and I hope God is proud of me at least. I want to minister to people of all ages and just inspire them, listen to them, be that voice of inspiration and so much more. I am slowly putting away my wayward ways and behaviors and trying my best to be the new ME.
An idea came to me a couple of days ago while talking with my sister. I was thinking of ways I can make money and do something that will interest me and also be a fun and interactive career. So my “BIG IDEA” was to go to culinary school after I finish my associates degree in Fashion Merchandising and Retail Management and after that obtain a Business Degree or partner with someone who has a business degree and open a Clean Eating (Paleo Lifestyle) Catering Company. All the food will be freshly cooked and of course handmade for that extra touch of home. I was thinking of also doing different seminars/conferences on this type of lifestyle so people can become more aware of what it is all about. The catering company will be a company that cooks foods for families and then my company will personally deliver meals to people’s houses daily at what overtime they choose. I am so excited about this and I am really thinking of doing this. I believe that this could be a life changing type of lifestyle and company. It will of course be a green company because we are promoting a clean/green lifestyle. I am really hoping to do this. I have so much plans but this is the first plan that I have actually made that seems to be realistic 🙂 Yay to making amazing plans!!!
I named my blog Kiss of Joy because I wanted this blog to mean something to me. I wanted this blog to be personal, raw and just truthful. As people in the music industry say “A stripped down performance” well in this case it’s a raw, acoustic version of my life. I renamed my blog “Kiss of Joy” because I wanted to feel joy whenever I read my blog or someone else to be happy or joyous when they read how my life is evolving. I believe that a simple kiss, hug, good deed, a kind word or a small token can bring so much joy to someone’s life and that is what I wanted to accomplish with this blog. I picked this name because it’s just so simple and the name of the blog will want to get you reading I hope. So here it is the meaning of my blog name 🙂